screw it.
ppl often says tt love is blind. yea indeed its damn blind. looks can be deceiving. wan to find boyfriend, go for looks and their stupidness. looking for husband? go for their personality and i don give a damn abt their outer beauty man. every fucking relationship i go through, its all sweet at first but after the honeymoon is over, its all down to 'no chemistry' excuses. geez, how lame can tt be?? of course i might get damn hurt at first but after awhile, find it really amusing in the end. moaning over the break up can be such an ass but learning from it is such a bliss. goin to club 2-3 times every week and becoming soon-to-be alcoholic hardcore does help me get over the pain but its all depend on the future of my mindset of havin another relatonship. thought of becoming a bisexual or lesbian but rite now i juz cant find a suitable candidate. hehe. sometimes i admit i juz wanna haf someone to cuddle with but he wish it was someone else. am i hurt? yes i am but i pretend im not. but come to think of it, love is like a gamble. whether we last forever or not, its all depends if we go through tough times together. love doesnt happen naturally but its how u make it happen.