love is an asshole

Tuesday, July 03, 2007,

Â Â 2:04 PM

ppl often says tt love is blind. yea indeed its damn blind. looks can be deceiving. wan to find boyfriend, go for looks and their stupidness. looking for husband? go for their personality and i don give a damn abt their outer beauty man. every fucking relationship i go through, its all sweet at first but after the honeymoon is over, its all down to 'no chemistry' excuses. geez, how lame can tt be?? of course i might get damn hurt at first but after awhile, find it really amusing in the end. moaning over the break up can be such an ass but learning from it is such a bliss. goin to club 2-3 times every week and becoming soon-to-be alcoholic hardcore does help me get over the pain but its all depend on the future of my mindset of havin another relatonship. thought of becoming a bisexual or lesbian but rite now i juz cant find a suitable candidate. hehe. sometimes i admit i juz wanna haf someone to cuddle with but he wish it was someone else. am i hurt? yes i am but i pretend im not. but come to think of it, love is like a gamble. whether we last forever or not, its all depends if we go through tough times together. love doesnt happen naturally but its how u make it happen.

screw it.

Saturday, January 13, 2007,

Â Â 1:23 AM

here i am now at cineleisure waiting for my two 'bodyguards' who happens to be my colleagues.. let me introduce them.. there's kenneth and isma.. now they are like playing battlefield game.. both who lurveeee to bully me alot..!! while here i am talking what crap only-god-knows-wad.. haha! ok ok its lame.. i shall entertain myself later k.. thier eyeballs looks like they can pop out anytime and fall off...!!!

screw it.

Saturday, December 23, 2006,

Â Â 1:17 AM

guess yj got nothing better to do.. haha. adib forward this email to me, something abt telling me what sort of person i am.. tis is wat it says abt me la..

Fig tree (sensibility) : (never heard of the tree la..)
very strong minded (didn't realise that..)
a bit self-willed (can say la..)
honest (very.. haha!)
loyal (very true..!!)
independent (totally!)
hates contradiction or arguments (yup yup..)
hard worker when wants to be (not when i had a bad day.)
loves life and friends (loves them to death..)
enjoys children and animals (i always wants one.. adib, take note:)
few sexual relationship (wat so shiok abt ot.. haha)
great sense of humour (i laugh the loudest.. muakakaka!!)
has artistic talent (i lurvess drawing shit...)
great intelligence (thought i'm always so blur..)

am i really like that?? to me, its 99% true la.. :D

screw it.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006,

Â Â 8:37 PM

im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. heeelp meee...!!! haha!! blessed & love myself. + him too la. :D

screw it.

Monday, October 16, 2006,

Â Â 12:40 PM

too tired with work tt it badly affect my school. i need a break badly. need a holiday. need my old self back. need my guilty pleasure. need my chocolates back. need my dear. need my own time. need my sleep. need my rest. too tired mentally. its been like hell. blessed myself.

screw it.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006,

Â Â 10:23 PM

love him lots. haha! happi fasting day! :D

screw it.

Monday, October 09, 2006,

Â Â 12:38 PM

'love is too powerful to be blinded' thats wad he told me. its been only a day that i'm in a relationship wif him after 1mth and 6days knowing each other deeply. he's been a blessing in my life. he has the whole package tt i wan in a guy. good thing, he's really patience whenever i suddenly called him and non-stop nagging about things tt stressed me up. period. first met him at m.o.s which was really funny and weird. bisexual me, he love me so much so do i. always.

screw it.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006,

Â Â 10:19 PM

recently i was in a relationship wif a 18 year old guy only 13 days. its was wonderful at first but we just didnt noe each other that well coz we were in a relationship too soon. point is tt we will always love each other. people around me is so different to me nowadays. i just have to be humble always. and tt's hard. i wan to feel being loved and loving someone but tt takes time for the right one to approach me.

screw it.

Saturday, June 10, 2006,

Â Â 5:42 PM

it's been like a rollercoaster. meeting different types of guys and keeps turning them down. jus have to concentrate on my work and my friends. guess that is wad fate is all about. sucks i know. overdose i like.

screw it.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006,

Â Â 7:18 PM

as for now, im so busy with my work and trying hard to balance it wif my friends.. miss them so much. and a big news, aza is officially out of my life.. guess tis is wat i haf to do in order to be happy wif myself.. but i do meet a couple of great guys along my single life.. but now i onli in contact wif one of them.. hehe.. i won tell u whu.. he's a great guy so far.. funny and sincere.. anyway, work-wise.. its been really hard on me.. loads of sacrifice and patience but then again tts good for me too coz it helps me to mellow down and patience alots.. haha.. love them all always.. get back to you some other time aite. *hugs*

. : ira : .

screw it.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006,

Â Â 4:45 PM

hey mani.. i noe tt ur're too obssesed wif E but at least try to get a life of ur own. even if ur're hiding it from us, it's really no use, it's odvious enough. n when u n E are together, im not surprised coz u r really like to make decision tt r so fast tt u don even tink of the consequences. i dunwan u repeat ur same old mistakes in rushin things wif any guy. n im not damn jealous abt both of u la.u haf to let circumtances and fate takes its own course. like wat my ex told me. tink abt it babe.

screw it.

Saturday, January 07, 2006,

Â Â 12:27 PM

been really busy these past few days. all i do is work, work ,work. n finally i haf two days off. working is damn fun when u haf great colleagues but except when there's misunderstading among each other. lup u guys always. see u all in a couple of days.

screw it.

Monday, December 05, 2005,

Â Â 8:09 PM

i love me

i love foods

i love him

i love my lives

i love being insane

i love chocolates

i love my friends

i love freedom

i love the name of azhaar

i love pizza

i love coffee

i love to eat

i love sleeping

i love him

i love my hair

i love being lazy

i love to dress up

i love being stoopid

and most importantly..

i love being me

screw it.

Sunday, December 04, 2005,

Â Â 11:14 AM

rite now, i feel like i'm livin' in a world of confusion. life is like a hurdles. my problems can never be solved. and there's more to come. i jus haf to prepared for it n be humble.

screw it.